7 July, 1999

Still Too Much Work

Today is definitely better than yesterday, although there's just way too much work to do; installation instructions and release notes and help files and releases and InstallShield and meetings. It's somewhat satisfying to have so much on my plate, but I'd be happier if I felt like anything was getting done. Tomorrow I hope to finish the installation docs; I should have a good three or four hours of uninterrupted time to deal with them.

Aside from too much work it's been a really good day. I spent a large chunk of it talking to Liralen, which is becoming a frequent occurance and is just incredibly rewarding. It's a little scary, too, to get close to someone in this abstracted online way and think about the next time you'll see them in person -- what if it's not there? We talked about that some too, which made me uneasy, and unfortunately the uneasiness has stuck with me for the last few hours. I've been using it as an excuse to really pour myself into work, but at some point I should probably figure out why it's coming up.

Norm was today, and also good, although really terrifying. I'm mostly not thinking about the session because a lot of stuff came up emotionally, centred around a dream that someone had. She told Liralen about it yesterday, which was good, but couldn't tell Norm today -- which is unsurprising; nobody inside can tell Norm much of anything. I keep contemplating starting individual sessions with Lisa (one of the therapists in my Sunday group), since people seem more inclined to talk to her, but that brings up a bunch of other stuff for me, so I haven't decided what to do yet.

Now I'm going to leave work (finally!) and stop at McDonald's to fulfill my fastfood lust, and then home. I might log in again to mud -- it sounds like there's exciting Pern stuff going on -- but I think I'm probably too exhausted to get much out of it. It's more likely I'll play Might and Magic VII.


©1999 Cera Kruger
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