This is going to be really quick, since I want to finish before I go home and it's already late in the day. I spent most of my journal time today neatening up earlier entries so I could post a bunch at once, and catching up on Ceej, who has been updating a lot recently.

As I expected, I woke up this morning with crisp clear emotions completely untouched by last night's turmoil. I remembered being upset, but it wasn't anything I could relate to, and I still didn't have any idea about why. Once I got into work I had a chance to chat with Liralen, and between her and some quick discussion with Jen I ended up figuring out the childhood stuff that was getting triggered. Liralen and I had an amazing talk about it that was really good and reassuring for both of us, and as it went on I could feel all this tension vanishing from my body. Wonderful. This is the reasonable world again, the one I knew I could get to if I could just quit reacting and start to think.

We finished up and she went to lunch, and I sped to Millbrae to go over everything with Norm. I'd wanted a light session and that's what it was; I was almost hyper as I explained the recent emotional stuff to him and gave him context. It was actually sort of funny, as he came independently to the conclusions I reached this morning, which made me feel pretty good about my ability to process these things. He was really impressed with the conversation Liralen and I had about things and said a lot of nice stuff about how great our friendship sounds to him. Most cool.

Then back to work, to go to meetings and work on more release notes and chase people around trying to get information to finish the release notes. Now it's pretty late and I'm ready to go home and collapse beside Jim, to hear about his day and think about dinner... probably not cooking, since I don't have any meat defrosted, but maybe I'll make spaghetti.