i don't know why
it hurts so much when you put yourself down
just cuts like a knife.
makes it hard to breath for
wanting to cry.
i don't know why.

i don't know. i hate arguing with you, with them.
i hate coming up against that wall of self-doubt, of beat-in shame
and getting told i don't have a clue
what's goin' on with you.
i just want to hide my head and cry
'cause i can feel the pain and slow dying of a dream
no one else in this world has.
all hidden under your words.
i can't do a damned thing about it.
i can't do a damned thing to help you
with this pain
other than...

love you.

so much...


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