I kept trying not to think about work, but inevitably it all overflowed and I finally started to feel everything about it. I got home from Japanese Tuesday night in a good mood but immediately became stressed about how much stuff there is to do, figure out, decide, plan for, and how I'm just utterly physically exhausted and that makes it seem impossible. Jim was really helpful, even more so than usual; he asked some excellent questions that got me on track and I ended up crying on his shoulder and spilling out how disappointed I am to see our really good company get handed over to people whose work I don't respect. It felt wonderful to get it all out, even though it was all about being upset and sad and feeling betrayed by circumstance. I did another round of it yesterday with Norm, and I think I'm clear now. Not entirely over the sadness, but I know where I am and what it's all about. And, of course, my energy has miraculously returned. Every time I go through this I'm so amazed that it works, that when I dig down to how I'm feeling and let it go I suddenly quit being exhausted all of the time -- but it really, really does work.

One strange thing I just realised -- I've been telling everyone that we found out 'a few weeks ago' that all but seven of us are being laid off. But as I was reading back over my journal I realised that it was only last week that we found out about this. Time is moving strangely right now.