This is another very tired day, as week 4 of my BAMM class was yesterday and we did custom fights. I was really stressed about doing mine, because I had absolutely no idea what I was going to do but I wanted to do something meaningful. Something that would be very real to me. In the end, I did; I don't know where my scenario came from or exactly what it meant, but clearly a lot of stuff got released.

Today I'm -- well, tired isn't even the right word. Stunned, I guess. Numb. No emotions, except when suddenly they explode and I find myself crying on my bed, watched by two very concerned cats. Jinian helpfully tries to lick away my tears, which does always make me giggle.

We're leaving to visit my parents in 8 days! I'm really, really looking forward to it, now more than ever.