10 February, 1999

Beyond Tired

I'm so far beyond tired it's funny. I'm giggling at everything. I'm also continuing to get phenomenal amounts of work done, to my great shock. In mere moments we're going to start the final release for one of our customers, and then I'll go home and do my C midterm, and then I'll go to Harold's and do Hebrew. Eventually I'll sleep, but if tonight is like the last two I'll get hyper once it gets dark and won't sleep until midnight or 1. Which just isn't enough, apparently, since I'm tired tired tired.

Millbrae was odd. The first forty minutes or so was very mundane stuff about work and my mom. Then I started talking about the BAMM graduation, and the specific scenario that triggered me, and I cycled through a bunch of emotions really fast. I think it helped that I'm so tired, because I ended up talking about some memories I'd been steadfastly avoiding, and it was easy to be flippant and rush through them and get the data out. Next week Norm will probably want me to talk about it more, and that is likely to be harder.

We still have one bug, and we're in fierce negotiation. Can this bug be lived with? If so it's a final release and we're done. If not... doom, gloom, and perhaps working very late again.


©1999 Cera Kruger
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