January 26, 1998

Got to see the doctor today. Dr. Knight is very energetic, small, and really sharp. He really reassured me, gave me the information that I needed to figure out what was going on and did a quick examination of the leg and knee that started with the good knee, to see how it was supposed to work, first. That reassured me quite a lot, and it turns out that the exterior ligaments look like they're all in place.

It also looks about 80-90% sure that the ACL is torn right off. There aren't very many cases of a partial tear, and when there is one, it usually holds up just like a completely whole one, and with the way my joint was wobbling, it looks like it's a complete tear.

So.

About a week for the MRI, then about another three or for weeks to get it back into shape. From there, it's likely that if I elect to do surgery, that it'll be, worst case (yes, he admits worst case, so I might get pleasantly surprised), six months before I'm up and about and normal again. But I'll likely never plant and pivot on that leg again without the surgery, but then again I might not need to.

It kinda boils down to whether or not I want to play soccer again. It's been such a big part of my life, and I've been doing it for so long, it seems a shame to give it up for an accident that could happen anywhere and any when. But maybe it's time I moved onto something else. I'm going to have to do an exercise bicycle for the next several weeks, as soon as the knee gets back to being able to bend enough for it. Why not just do that 20 minutes a day and then leave the rest of that time for things like writing? I dunno. I'm going to have to think about it. I've been thinking about a lower impact form of exercise for a while, but haven't gotten shaken out of my week to week scheduling.

Maybe it's time.

But to lose the moments? Or is it just to find others?

Well, it's semi-pointless deciding before the MRI shows the full details. That'll be interesting in and of itself as I'm likely going to have to figure out how to take the ring out of the tragus piercing before going into the imaging chamber; and *then* figure out how to put it back in. Wheee...

Talk about an adventure.

© 1998 by Liralen Li.

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