I'm having a moody morning, up and down about all sorts of things. How do I find enough time to focus on my creativity? How do I find enough time to rest and refresh myself so that I have any creative energy to focus? How do I learn all the things I'd like to learn for my job while still doing my job? And do I commit to turning my job into a career by learning all the things I want & need to learn?

I guess it all comes down to: How do I do everything? And the answer is -- I don't. I pick and choose, just like always, and try to stick with the choices long enough to see them bear fruit, since without doing that there isn't any point in picking and choosing in the first place. Once something has come of my choices maybe I'll leave those things behind and move on to something else, or maybe I'll keep on with whatever it is, but at least I'll have an idea of what it is that I'm doing.

Japanese is a good example of this, I think. I'm about to start my 3rd quarter (yes, the final went fine), and I know I'm going to keep it up for a while, at least through June of next year -- unless I stop having fun. But what do I do after that? There are other classes I wish to take, and I can only take one class per quarter while working fulltime, but I don't think I'll want to give up Japanese, either. Can I be sufficiently disciplined to keep on studying even when I've run out of classes? Will there really be time to keep on studying while taking classes in something else?

There is also a theory which I am toying with, which is that if I make some changes to my life I'll have more energy. Changes like getting enough sleep, eating better, exercising some -- that sort of thing. It's a good theory, but I don't know if it's actually true that this will give me more energy and thus allow me to spend more time doing things and less time recovering from exhaustion. Maybe the amount of stuff I'm doing is simply inherently exhausting.

This is all stuff I can figure out, but I rather wish I didn't have to. Except that I can't imagine who I'd be if I didn't have more interests than I had time to pursue.

In case anyone couldn't guess, the Very Important Appointment was an interview. A disappointing one, as it turned out. I should probably follow up on it a bit, but I really haven't been inspired to do so. I don't think they'll make me an offer, and even if they did there's no way I would take it. So why worry?